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lalala [ May 2 2007|2:31pm ]
[ mood | lalala ]

lalala my name is kim and my husband is smelly and my mean best friend misses me very much! <3

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La Tee Da Tee we like to party. [ April 13 2006|7:35pm ]
[ mood | bored ]

Do you know what sucks hardcore? At work, at least once a day I get scared. So afraid to see someone from before. And I see people and I'm like is that them?! It's nauseating as fuck. I hate being this fucked in the head. I hate guys. Except for Kyle... but he is a woman. =) <3 I get all of my car shit installed tomorrow. And I don't know what it is with my lower back but whenever I get a tattoo there I get all clammy and sick and dizzy. It's pretty though. My first bit of color! Greg Smith is a big jerk face because he blows Sarah and I off ALL OF THE TIME. Like we're not the coolest people he knows or something. Haha. Anywho... oh exciting day- I'm doing laundry. I'm tired as all hell. The kids I work with are mad at me because I already have things that they didn't get for a lifetime and a half. So sue me, I'm responsible and mature. It's a fucking nap time job. Button Button Button Button Button. It's more thought provoking to pick my nose. HAHAHA. Okay, so maybe I'm being a little bitter and a little mean and very NOT HUMBLE. But it's rough- okay? My IQ is laughing in my FACE. Humility.... humility... h.u.m.i.l.i.t.y. Hmmmm. *sigh* I just need to get back to me. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. Maybe I'll get my nails done with black tips like the old days. Yay son. I miss the old days. The old days had dreams. Sweet ass dreams.

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sunflower seeds [ April 11 2006|4:33pm ]
[ mood | busy ]

Highlight of my life!!!!!!!

So, I just got a pimp ass system for my car: subs, amps, box, head unit...
let's just say it's an AWESOME system.
Thank you Sarah, mam.
And Kyle.
And myself.
Now Kyle and I are looking into this Honda Prelude for him. The only not so hot things are that it could use some bondo and the mileage is kind of bleh. But if our engine dies on us there's alway our Honda lovin' friend Taylin. He's a doll, and he could get us a great deal for another one any day of the week. I'm tired...
But anyway, I'm getting a new tattoo tomorrow if all goes well. Other lovely things... work is interesting to say the least because I have four jobs there. Beyond that, Kyle and I are trying to sell our place so that we can get back to the west coast.
And my parents just hopped a plane to Japan today. :(
I have quite a lot of money right now, so hopefully I can keep saving like I need to. If we get this car for Kyle I'm hoping that we'll be able to get a good interest rate on our loan. And with my bank there is no penalty for paying it off early. So, I'm in a good mood. But I need to get some stuff done.

<3*

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Over. [ February 27 2006|3:09pm ]
[ mood | crushed ]

Such a short little time in the Navy-- it's almost done. I wish I had the time or energy(mostly energy) to explain, but I don't. It's been exhausting, depressing and very stupid. I went through some awful shit, and I was punished because of my fear to admit certain things. I was punished because of animosity toward me. I was also punished because I am dumb. Not unintelligent, just dumb. What is pathetic is that I was an outstanding student and a passionate sailor. However, those who are above me seem to have very little feeling for PASSIONATE people. Oops- okay I FUCKED up A LOT. That's not the problem. The problem is that they don't investigate because they don't care. They are the "wannabe" vigilante hammer-- crushing and demolishing for what they are 80% sure is RIGHT. They just choose to ignore the 20% possible WRONG. I just need to sleep. I have not been this depressed in a very long time. Actually, I don't think that I have EVER been this depressed. Fuck my life. What is the point? The same thing happens over and over again, but I never gain anything from it. I never gain anything from anything. It's a black hole, a living hell. FUCK.

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[ January 1 2006|10:54pm ]
[ mood | exhausted ]

I am very, very tired. Happy New Year. Or something. I suppose it was alright. I slept from about... 10 to 5 today. I didn't sleep at all last night, so it's not like I was just being lazy. I had watch from 3 to 5 this morning, so I didn't go to sleep before that because it just seemed pointless, and I didn't sleep after that because then I wouldn't have wanted to get up at 8 for muster(that's when we all get together and say "HERE" to prove that we didn't die in our sleep or disappear off the face of the planet). It's really nice having so many days off though. Of course, right now we have duty every other day, but even then we have aloooooot of free time. Four more days left here at the detatchment. Then I am free... sort of. I still have to muster every morning, and PT is three times a week, so on those days I will have to be here by 0425. And on duty days I'll have to be here for watch- then on the weekends I will have to spend the day here if I have duty. I'm not sure how it will work on the weekdays. All I know is that I am very excited to be back at home with Kyle. Today was surprisingly stressful being as that I slept most of the day, but I guess it was really just mentally stressful. Nothing bad really happened... I'm really glad that Greg is around. The only downfall of being at home is that I am anticipating the stress of taking care of the house already. If I hadn't needed the sleep I would have cleaned it today. I just can't live the way I did before, ignoring the messes. I think it's just really difficult fitting all of the things that we own into one house. I never want to own that much. I will own very few decorative items, just enough to make my home comfortable. And, besides, the less you spend on things like that the more you can spend on more important things like clothes and entertainment. I think I'm just ranting now. I'm so bored. I think I'm going to make my way upstairs soon so I can get some sleep. Who knows, maybe I'll just procrastinate some more.
Anyhow, goodnight. I love you. Especially Sarah Snow who is the best present buyer ever. My Grandma tried to be like, who says Kyle is going to take you with him to Eggspectations. I was like, READ THE CARD- To Kyle(For Kim). =) That was awesome. <3*x1,000,000,000,000

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HOME [ December 16 2005|5:52pm ]
HEY HEY!
I am home... ISH... Currently I am at the Navy barracks where I will be residing until I finish "PHASE 1". That is the phase where you learn how to do the watches here, stand for inspections of your room and uniform, and basically prove that you are a non stupid sailor so that they will give you freedom. I have liberty this weekend meaning that I am off base from 0830 to 2115. SO- once that phase is over I will be living at home and commuting to school. I will be done with that hopefully by the sixth or the seventh, so that will be good. For now I am hungry so I amgoing to go get food, but I will post more later. <3 All my love.

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My last day. [ October 10 2005|10:25am ]
[ mood | excited ]

I taste like frosted cheerios. HAHAHAHA.

Moving on, today is my last day at home, tomorrow I get to wake up at four in the morning and go to MEPs. It's my last day. Kyle's at work right now, but he went in a little early, so maybe he will get off early. I barely cried last night, so I am doing good. I've been thinking about it, and I might actually be excited. Classes, ABOUT the Navy, new people, getting accustomed to things and pretending to hate them with my fellow sailors. It might actually be fun. Seriously, I've left my family before. If I could just take Kyle with me I know that I would be fine. Sarah and her boyfriend, MATT, came over last night, Kyle and I made them dinner, then we watched Center Stage. I love that movie. The night before last Kyle and I stayed at hotel and went to a really snazzy restaraunt and dinner was like sixty dollars. It was nice. He might go home for Thanksgiving to surprise his parents. It makes me jealous, but I guess if that's what he wants to do then I love him and he can do whatever. Now he just has to contend with getting a couple of days off of work. But it might work out okay because they absolutely adore him there. He's making 8.50, which isn't bad, and after 90 days there it will go up to 8.75 and then 90 days after that it goes up to 9. And they don't mind if he works overtime which means that he is then making 12.25. It's awesome. I think I'm actually getting excited. Hmm. 9 more hours at home. I'm so glad that I passed the physical test to make E2. mean all of the memorization was so easy, but then I passed the physical stuff to so screw everyone that thought I wouldn't physically make it. I think I am going to take a journal with me, and leave a journal with Kyle. That way we can write to each other in our journals, and then we can still write letters, but we don't have to write them daily..Anyhow... I guess that's all for now.

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA- not really all that funny [ October 7 2005|12:41pm ]
[ mood | amused ]

She don't run from the sun no more
She boxed her shadow and she won
Said I can see you laugh
Through these bottle caps
And this wire around my neck aint
There for fun

But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful

Meanwhile I hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I cant see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where theres no more rain
And I can be me

Yeah they talk about her
She smiles like shes so tough
She says
"Hey can you talk a little louder,
I don't think my heart is broken enough"



>(THE STORY OF MY LIFE LIVING WITH MYAUNT AND UNCLE)<


But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful

Meanwhile I hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I can't see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where theres no more rain
And I can be me

Some days I wait in the indigo
Singing that song on the radio
I blame these puddles on the rain
You know I gotta keep these cheeks dry today
Gotta keep my cheating strategy
And baby I'm gonna have it made.

But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful

Meanwhile I hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I can't see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where theres no more rain
And I can be me

can i trust you?

Changes [ October 7 2005|10:43am ]
[ mood | calm ]

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||| 53%
Stability |||||||||| 40%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||||| 73%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||| 63%
Interdependence |||||||||| 36%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Mystical |||||||||| 36%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Hedonism |||||| 23%
Materialism |||||||||||| 50%
Narcissism |||||||||| 36%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Work ethic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Self absorbed |||||||||||| 50%
Conflict seeking |||||| 30%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 43%
Romantic |||||||||| 36%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 50%
Anti-authority |||||||||||| 43%
Wealth |||||||||||| 43%
Dependency || 10%
Change averse || 10%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Individuality |||||||||||||||| 63%
Sexuality |||||||||||||| 56%
Peter pan complex |||||||||| 36%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||||| 57%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Paranoia |||||||||||| 50%
Vanity |||| 16%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 70%
Female cliche |||||||||||| 50%
Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were high which suggests you are overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense too often of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.


trait snapshot:

neat freak, organized, worrying, phobic, fears the unknown, irritable, pessimistic, emotionally sensitive, fears chaos, risk averse, fragile, unadventurous, depressed, frequently second guesses self, likes to fit in, does not like to stand out, perfectionist, hard working, does not like to be alone, clingy, dependent--- WTF?, practical, ordinary--- YEAH, OKAY, intellectual, takes precautions, good at saving money, suspicious, heart over mind, busy, altruistic


Bold- Seriously to moderately agree
Italic- Fervently disagree
Neither- Do not agree, nor do I disagree




WHAT I FOUND MOST AMUSING IS THAT THE TEST SAYS THAT I AM VERY INDEPENDENT, HOWEVER, THE LITTLE PERSONAL DESCRIPTION THING SAYS THAT I AM DEPENDENT...???????????

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Bored and Lonely =) [ October 6 2005|1:17pm ]
[ mood | anxious ]

I have alot that I COULD do, but right now I just feel... BLAH. I will probably do it anyway. I have a migraine, but it's the kind where the only way that I can get over it is to aggravate it with sunlight and noise. So, I am currently getting over it. I have been up since 9:30, not all that early, but not all that late. Yesterday was interesting, I had fun with Sarah, and then with my brother at the DEP meeting- and that other stuff. Annoying, I just wanted to get home, but NOOO, I'm a big F*ING push over. It's cool though. Whatever. I'm just bored and lonely right now, but I don't want to leave without accomplishing anything first. I'm a terrible wife. Speaking of which, Kyle won't be home until late today, well not LATE, but later than normal. That is crap. I am not happy about that. I mean, not that I'm upset with him about it or whatever, but I am generally UPSET about it.



Ani DiFranco
IMPERFECTLY

i'm okay
if you get me at a good angle
and you're okay
in the right sort of light
and we don't look
like pages from a magazine
but that's all right
oh baby, that's all right

i crashed your pickup truck
and then i had to drive it back home
i was crying
i was so scared
of what you would do
of what you would say
but you just started laughing
so i just started laughing along
saying, it looks a little rough
but it runs okay
it looks a little rough
but it runs good anyway

we get a little further from perfection
each year on the road
i think that's called character
i think that's just the way it goes
but it's better to be dusty than polished
like some store window mannequin
why don't you touch me where i'm rusty
let me stain your hands
touch me where i'm rusty
let me

when you're pretty as a picture
they pound down your door
but i've been offered love
in two dimensions before
and i know that it's not all
that it's made out to be
let's show them all how it's done
let's do it all imperfectly
let's do it all imperfectly

cuz i'm okay
if you get me at a good angle
and you're okay
in the right sort of light
we don't look
like pages from a magazine
but that's all right
oh baby, that's all right
oh, that's all right
that's all right

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the worst sort of pain. [ October 5 2005|11:26pm ]
[ mood | distressed ]

Technically there are 6 days left until I leave. However, that would include Monday, but Monday I get checked into the hotel so that I can be transported to MEPs the next morning. So, it's like there are only 5 more days. 5 more nights with Kyle. Oh wow, randomly throughout the day for the past couple of days I have found myself almost in tears in public places. It just pops into my mind. Yes, I'm excited, but I wish there were words to make you understand how much my heart hurts knowing that I have to leave him. It's the worst feeling in the world.

Why did God have to give humans the capacity to feel something so detrimentally painful?
And I keep making him angry. And I just know that if I were to go in there right now he wouldn't want to even touch me. You have no idea what pain is unless you truly understand this. I'm so afraid that he is going to end up hating the person that he married. But... I know that he loves me, and I know that I love him. I think it's just the stress that is making this so terrible right now.
I just know that I love him.

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<3 Fear [ October 5 2005|12:55am ]
[ mood | nauseated ]

I am very tired right now. But I can't sleep. My mind is racing. I wish I knew where my teddy bear was hiding. It's really much too hot to cuddle up to Kyle right now, and I'm really bad about bothering him when he is sleeping, so really I just need something to hug and feel safe. That movie made me so nauseous. And I ate way too much tonight, and I think that is making me feel sick too. Did I mention how tired I am? And that I cannot sleep. It's only partially the movie's fault I guess. I really just wish that I had someone to be scared with me right now, or understand that I am freaked out. But ALAS I am home with sleeping people, pleasantly dreaming about non-violent things like bunnies. I'm just scared of my icky screaming dreams right now. I haven't had one of those since Kyle and I got married. Oh wow, I hope I don't have one of those at bootcamp. That would be so bad. I can't remember telling Kyle about those, I really want to tell him right now, but I already got on his nerves with the waking him up. I'm lonely. I will be going into the Navy as an E2. Just barely because during the physical I had to pee soooooo bad and my head starting hurting SO much. I really wish I could make my head stop spinning. Too many thoughts. I don't want to sleep alone. I'm so sad. It's funny because it's almost like I'm alone right now anyways, but if I wanted to I could just go wrap my arms around him, though usually when he's sleeping he grumbles and pushes me off, but at least he is there. I don't know what I am going to do without him. It scares me more than anything in the world.


I LOVE KYLE JOEL WELLS.

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Your helpless little girl, begging to be forgiven... it's just so wrong. [ October 1 2005|9:50pm ]
[ mood | crushed ]

To Feel Demeaned
I wish you could see
Deep inside my mind
To know how much I'm struggling
To see see how hard I try
I just want to make you happy
And the worst part
Is that I have no idea how
We're supposed to complete each other
But I always seem to fail
It seems as though my hurt
Is all that can prevail
It hurts more than a cut
Or breaking a bone
Because the hurt is the fear
That you'll leave me alone
But without you I'm empty
I am no longer me
I'm the struggling image
Of who you want me to be
I'm bleeding and crying
I'm naked and scared
How easily I'd be fixed
If just once I thought you cared
I know that you care vaguely
In that empty sort of way
Like you're glad when I am near you
Because I agree with what you say
But are you afraid
In all the same ways
That one day I might be gone
It might be out of your control
There might be nothing left to say
Of course you don't feel this
Because I don't push, I don't shove
I don't make you grovel
You never have to beg
For you it is basic
To know that you are loved







I am very sad right now. And very lonely. And my biggest fear in the world is that it will always be like this, where I can do nothing to fix things and make them happy again. Am I really that mean and controlling when this all seems so out of my control? The whole thing feels like a whirlwind, and the only way to not be torn up in it is to get down on my knees and grovel and beg. It makes me feel so stupid, like a stupid, punished little girl. I don't want to feel like a little girl anymore!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK. Gah, I'm gonna fucking break down again. Last night was so awful. What a psychotic fucking breakdown. I feel like I never know what's going on. Why can't people just be straight with me. Say no when you want to, and mean yes when you say it, don't push me away and get angry when I do the same. I'm only doing it to protect myself from the pain that you've already caused. I'm just so sad. My heart hurts so much. It literally feels swollen in my chest. I just don't know what to do.

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Broken Dreams* [ September 29 2005|3:04pm ]
[ mood | drained ]

I don't know how I feel right now, my head is spinning, and I feel like I might get sick... it might be the lack of food but somehow I doubt that. I need some serious ibuprofen. Tonight I have an appointment to get my hair cut. Kyle and I pretty much have the house to ourselves right now. It's really nice knowing that we don't have to deal with other people. I love that he's the only person I can be around constantly without hating them. I mean, of course there are things that I hate after awhile, but I never feel like I am starting to see through him. It's a very nice feeling. He should be home in about a half an hour or so. One and a half weeks until bootcamp. I think I am getting less scared and more excited. Honestly, my biggest concern is being away from Kyle for so long. It's really nauseating to think about that. I've been cleaning all day because I chose other things over cleaning yesterday, so it's made double the crap for me to do today. Go figure. So, the last of the laundry is in the dryer, I cleaned my bathroom, I need to put clean laundry away, the ferrets are out playing right now, I have some stuff to do in the kitchen still, OIY. I just wish I didn't have these stupid allergies to deal with. I should vacuum, but once again MY HEAD FRICKING HUUUURTS. I wish Kyle would just get home already.

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[ September 26 2005|8:44am ]
[ mood | bouncy ]

HAPPY


I love everyone and everything today. It's a rarity, so catch it while you can. Today is Kyle's first day at work today.(SoRS- HAHAHAHA) YAY. He is supposed to call me and tell me what time he will be done, but he has not called yet. Ooooh- sad moment, I just remembered that I am getting my hair cut tomorrow. "ABOVE MY COLLAR" Do you unerstand, I have not had my hair CUT, like really- more than two inches since right before 8th grade!!!!!!! EFFING NAVY. Sike, I love the Navy, as you very well know, but OOOOOOH the dedication. Bootcamp is soooo soon, and I am kind of scared, of course I can't tell my family that because I am strong. Oiy. I don't know, I can't sleep, it's so soon that I can't sleep. I just lay there while Kyle sleeps and think about sleeping alone. I stress myself out soooo bad. Anyway, I am happy today, I swear. I am going to go home and cleaning EVERYTHING! But at the moment I am at Sarah's and she is in the shower. Rayna brought her a bird and it was sad. I have alot that I ought to do today. I hope that I will actually get it done, but you know me- SHINY OBJECTS. And I am finally starting to feel better because I have been sick for the past few days. I went to busch gardens and renn fest with my family this weekend. So that was exciting, except that my brother didn't go because of work. I still look like a hobo in "I haven't showered yet" clothes. I saw Panda yesterday at renn fest and I stopped and talked to her a lot because she is a very sweet girl. And I met her boyfriend, and I felt weird because new people always look at me funny. That probably relates to the fact that I am rather crazy. ANYWAY, that is all for now because I am bored with typing.

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adulthood [ September 19 2005|11:33pm ]
[ mood | happy ]

A wonderful world
Full of wonderful things
And such wonderful people
Living wonderful dreams
And a word to the wise
I will always despise
The way that you try
To pretend that I'm mean
I am dancing in circles
I am growing so soon
I'm a full grown adult
And I'm drinking by noon
So if ever you believe
That it's thanks you'll receive
You must be kissing the stars
While denouncing the moon
To say the least and the kindest
You . are . a . loon
To think you're so profound
That your wisdom will astound
I hope you find the ground
Before the ground finds you
Stop teaching the masses
Imitating the fascists
In a hope that you'll raise
The almighty flag
Or raise a swell child
Who could never do wrong
As their never was a child
She's been grown up for so long
Are you bitter that life hurt you
So you stole it from my hand
Grown up in so many ways
Yet, still such a child
That I have never learned to stand

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Eventually... [ September 15 2005|6:25pm ]
[ mood | numb ]

Okay, do you wanna know about my big problem...
THIS IS IT:
When you are having problems with a person typically you are both in the wrong. So, what do you do when you want to fix that? You can go and straight up apologize, but of course I HATE THAT.(I do it, but I hate it) Or you can go and be nauseatingly nice to the person, just get over what went down and move on- I LIKE THAT ONE BECAUSE MY BRAIN FUNCTIONS LIKE A GUYS BRAIN, ignore it and it will go away. BUt what if they are still angry and they push you away and it hurts because you chose to put yourself out there like that.
MY SOLUTION:
I hate people, and I just focus on the fact that one day I will die and this will all be over.
Anyone else have a happier outlook?

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*YAWN* [ September 10 2005|10:14am ]
[ mood | chipper ]

I'm supposed to go with Sarah to see Jenna today... so I am waiting for my star to get here. Kyle Joel is going to go with my parents, i guess. So I hope that the next time I mention going to see a friend he will want to go to. It bothers me that he has chosen not to go with me two times in a row now. Actually, the first time I was completely okay with it. More than OKAY, I was excited to have a little bit of me and Sarah time. But now it's twice, and I wanted him to go with me today. BUM. Oh well. I wonder where my Mom went... I guess I'll go find her.

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Iowa [ September 6 2005|11:47pm ]
[ mood | drained ]

I'm in Iowa right now, at a hotel. Kyle's passed out next to me and I really need to brush my teeth(funyons and chili cheese fries). This whole cross country gig is super brain numbing. AND I swear I'm really going to say something if my Dad keeps doing what he's doing... he's the guy who gave the don't be swayed by anyone speech at my wedding, but I swear that at least 15 times during this trip he has said KIIIIM or Hey you don't need to say that. And it's like there have even been times that Kyle and I are totally and completely joking around, so- seriously- he needs to get out of father mode and realize that all he is doing is making Kyle feel picked on even when I don't mean it that way. It's like there is a substantial difference every time it happens in how quickly Kyle gets frustrated with me. So my Dad is actually creating problems by trying to father me as opposed to staying out of my marriage. Go figure. It's like normal parents would be biased towards their own child, but NOOO, not mine, because that would be normal and we just don't do that. Talk about making me feel like MEGA BITCH OF DEATH when in my heart I know that I'm really not doing anything wrong. Kyle chose to marry me, sarcasm- self assuredness- and touchy emotions were all a well advertised part of the deal. It's nothing new, and it has not created these constant and steady PROBLEMS so far, so what does Dad think he's doing?
As for other things, I miss Kyle's family like crazy. Alisa didn't say goodbye to me when she left for work, and I'm seriously sad about that. I honestly really liked her, and I am pretty sure that she liked me. But Mom made it sound like she probably just didn't want me to see her cry or something. And I am really sad about leaving my nephews and my niece. Now I won't see them for about a year. I hope that they don't forget me or hate me or something like that where I can't control it at all. The thought of that makes me too sad for words. I love those kids so much. Even William and he is crazy and calls everyone fat losers and hts people and laughs about it. I even love him. And I want to be there to help make him less evil. But this is my life, and Kyle's life, but really this Maryland thing is my gig- So I've just got to hold tight, breathe deep, and jump right in with the flow. I hope it all turns out okay. It's kind of the way my future has always been. Pray a little and just take the plunge, never knowing, always hoping.
Anyway, I can't wait to see you all. I LOVE YOU. Call me thursday if you feel the same, although I will undoubtedly be with my Sarah Snow. Time to go to bed. See you soon.

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<3* [ August 9 2005|6:02am ]
Yes, I'm married now, sorry I don't update.
I kind of have to be a slacker about it until I get back there because I can't update here. SORRY. I love you all! Esp. SARAH SNOW!!!!!!!!!

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